monday's bitter pill...
shiet i wanna rant cos i wanna rant
lost my original rant, so now it's the double rant
or the no rant rant cos i'm tired rant
: :
why the heck do i need to contribute to the frikken world economy for
i think i'm destined to be a beach bum, cos that's all i wanna do
be a bum
don't have to work
if only weed still appeared 'mysteriously' on the coasts
better yet
legal to grow and is found in abundance on roadsides/beachsides everywhere
from virtue that it is a frikken weed
...
what can i say
another week of the same ole drudgery
i'm tired and stiff
and i didn't do much but sleep last weekend
and i'm not even that old
but i feel old
real old
old like shiet you realize you're gonna have to work like this for the rest of your life and it sucks old
thankful i don't have a kid yet
cos if i do, that poor kid's gonna grow up so miserable cos me and teds are old pretending to be kids
we're still kids
i don't care if we live old
we're still kids
i still want my candy and cake and throw in some pie too
....
support the troops?
hell yeah ido
SUPPORT THE TROOPS
GET 'EM BACK HOME
none in congress has a kid in the military
this war as usual is fought by the innocents
the poor and workingclass
the normal fodder pawns of the system
a system they supposedly elected themselves
sigh
how do you end up as the leader
you wanna change you have to be the leader
but to get there you need to schmooze and schmooze
or something
the people in politics don't seem to be the good guys no more
it's who can schooze and further their colleague's goals for monetary gains
... ...
i'm tired
wish i could run away
but heck running away never solves anything
gotta figure it out myself
and hell i may be selfish
but who else is gonna rant and rant about my existence in hoped i can find the solution but myself
i gotta rant to make things make sense
in our 9-5 9-9 9-10 9-12 existence
oftentimes we can't even rant
due to lack of time
putting in your hours
commuting back and forth
trying to relax only to be fed war reports
makin you feel like the world's going to shit pieces
shiet
shit happens and eveytime it does, it friggin stinks
...
eergh, i hate it when certain office personnel gives you that look
that condescending oh you're making my life's work a little harder today look
biatche
it's annoying when you do observe that certain females do use their wiles to get ahead
especially when you're the macho dress like a guy i'm totally taken nerdy punk programmer chick
you see these others, having cars, dressin nice everyday, makeup eyeliner nice clothes, accessorizes, hair done
frikken gossip most of the time
no i don't care bout those things
but i've read other ex-employees rants and i'm seein some truth in em
at least it looks like it
when you know this person can't even write a short email in english w/o mistakes
sheesh
ladies work it use it whatever i guess
just don't give me that look
cos heck i got my hell here myself
and i don't want to be hatin cos it's makes my day drag on even more
.. ...
so an ex-marine was tellin me bout how in the 60's
all the peace protesters wanted to do was party
heck i wanna party
beats much else
shiet we gotta fight for our right to damn party and we will
(yea i was listenin to the beastie boys)
but partyin beats fightin any day any time

mm is it the the nice warm weather
or lack of oxygen in my cubicle
i'm damn sleepy
another hour but feels so friggin long..
... ...
well i'd much rather be home
or outside enjoying the nice weather
but a girl's gotta eat
so work it is...

all we wanna do is have FUN

how can america lose the frikken media battle?
saddam and his sons are pretty much extermist lunatics, yet the us can't paint em in that true light to get more support for this bloody war.. and to have a good portion of the world supporting saddam, dang, that's losing by far more than a mile..

i read in tempo (indonesian news) that the fedayeens go into battle strapped with explosives.. they're the suicide squad willing to charge into battle and detonate themselves.. ugly ugly war..
... ...
you know what else i realized as i was talkin to my coworker..
i still fuckin have hangups about hopkins
fuckin place nearly killed me, drove me nuts fer shure
and earlier jules called bout this year's reunion.. 3rd yr
friggin 3 yrs and i'm still pissed at that place?
i was only there for 4, that's 3/4 of the time. . . .....
man, i really gotta learn to let things go
... ...
war is dirty
war is hateful
war is evil

how can one expect anyone to follow rules in combat?
heck everyone just wants to win, or at least not get shot
how can you stop blind rage when there's blood shed all around

every country that has had to fight for it's independence
didn't stick to the rules

don't like it, then stop this war

we know now both sides can really kill
not that it was ever doubted
how many days do you need to prove your might?

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i hate talking about war
i wish it will stop soon so it won't occupy my thoughts as much
fuckin i'm selfish, i just wanna be happy in this short life

eh heh this is for edgar tho i know you ain't gonna see this.
but dang thanks thanks again for the maad hookup

so my ins episode or should i say bcis now went smoothly
moslty cos ed above let me cut the line
(fyi it went around the building, wouldda taken me 3 hrs just to get in, not counting the other lines inside)
ahhh...
i can work yay without interruption
because now i am pending
heh pending..
lets me stay and work
so it's all good
..
mm to top it, lunch is delish, made it back in time too
spaghetti n meatballs, potato gratin, mushroom risotto.. mmm
and i still have my mcnuggets

 Saddam is a bastard
Bush is a bastard
Osama is a bastard
people be happy?
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oh yeah and since when is advocating for peace supporting saddam?
bastard is a bastard and deserves to die a thousand horrible deaths
but this war stinks
saddam has a record of human rights abuses going back 20 yrs
all of a sudden us is taking him out right now, with dick cheney's ole company (still paying him btw) winning a handful of firefighting rebuilding government contracts
something stinks
but it happened let's just hope someone puts a bullet between his (sh) eyes and end this thing soon
but does it end there?
i sure hope so..
... ...
sheesh and i was just settling into my monotonous same old day to day routine
i forgot to file my work permit renewal fock >:[
already 2 weeks behind the supposed refile date..
and last time it took 6 mos....
hmm maybe i'll get a break from work after all in the form of not being able to work (again)
shiet
.. .. .. ..

i'm sick and tired of all the craziness going on
wish it would end soon

i just can't stop thinking about how little life means sometimes
and that's ridiculous
but seriously it's way way too easy to die

i wonder if they believed they had a good reason to go
a good reason.. is that really enough?

the only hilite i saw of the oscars..
CNN: Oscar '03
"I've invited my fellow documentary nominees on stage with us here in solidarity with me," he said, "because we like non-fiction and we live in fictitious times. We live in the time where we have fictitious election results that elect a fictitious president. We live in a time where we have a man who's sending us to war for fictitious reasons, whether it's the fiction of duct tape or the fiction of orange alerts. ... We have a man sending us to war for fictitious reasons. We are against this war, Mr. Bush. Shame on you, Mr. Bush, shame on you."
- Michael Moore

mm everyone's got weekend recaps
actually friday i finally went drinking w my coworkers..
that was fun
sat. came to work ugh
(that's why we don't hang out cos i see em 55 hrs/everygoddamed week)
had dinner at this indo-malay place which was pretty good
(mm gado2, rujak, sate, lontong, ikan goreng, nasi goreng ikan asin..)
salted fish man, love that stuff
tangerine sorbet.. mm
went to play and hang out
then slipped in some bereket lambajun falafel sandwich and grape leaves
followed by frites w mango chutney n sweet chili
sunday, well i justwoke up from my nap .. now i gotta draw an elephant for teddy...

well politics will always divide people
regardless
heck everyone is entitled to think and say whatever the hell we goddamned want cos it's the internet and no one law governs it yet...
freedom of speech of religion of individual preferences
we're all different and unique, but heck can't we come up with something other than war to settle disputes?
the old testament's full of it
years and years of aggression
i guess it's inevitable when maniacs get into power
yeah you decide who
it can be applied to most