March 6, 2003

  • fucked up dreams last nite
    honestly when i don't smoke that sweet bud,
    my subconscious gets pretty ugly
    or at least pretty goddamned stupid paranoid


    and dontcha hate it when during a dream you go 'fuck i hope this is just a dream' and you think/realize it's not and you go 'fuuuck.. (as you picture yourself spiraling into the deepest pits of regret and despair)'
    and even when you're slightly up (cos someone woke you), you try to go back and resolve things
    cos you can't differentiate between the dream world and real world yet
    i mean wtf
    bleh
    way to start the day
    what with the sleet freezin rain n snow


    i'm full of rage today
    somebody wanna step into the bitch-slap line
    ha hah ..
    nah not good enough, i feel like beating something w a metal bat


    "Shut up you minion, you (U.S.) agent, you monkey..."
    Iraq rep to Kuwaiti rep at a summit in Doha


    arrr...
    I need to move
    will
    in april/may/june
    dreading lugging furniture
    and cleaning/packing everything
    and yeah getting a decent place


    like that no doubt song running..
    sound so familiar
    well w all the beat recycling goin on..


    i think everytime i feel intense hate for stupid reasons, i get a friggin headache
    it's bad to direct too much energy to worthless causes


    imma code robotically, mechanically in peace
    get home and hope i can squeeze in some painting time..


    tired and falling asleep
    but what else is new
    pump in some caffeine
    and i'm again rarin to go


    i am :
    artist programmer glutton lover friend chocolate monster bear crazy nut weirdo

    wish i :
    never need to worry bout money

    i wanna go to a buffet an pig out
    preferably a lobster buffet.. mmm

Comments (6)

  • Let me guess, the "P" is back in the picture.

  • nope
    wasn't that
    i dreamt i had 2 kids w no means to support them
    my mom doesn't know about them
    and T decides to get into casual sex
    cos i didn't tell him not to
    like wtf???

  • so basically all your worst fears and yuckies came to fruition in your dream.  dreams are just a way for your brain to organize your thoughts.  organize away!

  • how true, never thought of it that way
    guess those thoughts just need to get out
    and one thing rolled to another
    it's so easy to add on to dreams for the worse
    your mind goes to overdrive or somethin
    i'm hopin for sweet dreams of panda bears and candy land tonite :D
    tho that doesn't happen either
    so maybe just some good sound sleep

  • I always have yucky dreams but at least I know through my dreams how guilty I feel when I cheat on my bf.  Heeheehee.  It's like being able to have sex without getting pregnant.  You get to experience something but you don't have to deal with the consequences.

  • he he he

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