is it always the same friggin deal? you run and run until you get tired cos you've lost sight of the cause, cos you don't give a shit anymore, cos you're tired and it's not worth it.. what drives us and stops us? right now is prob just the feeling of resignation watching something bubble and boil and unable to change one little bit of the craziness
... ...
i suppose i'll never really get tired of this 4.20 bit..
from bacon today

yarr.. it's me pot o gold..

it's spring again

mm today is to what might have and what could have beens
twisting/reminiscing childhood teenage bittersweet memories
in your head.. so take a fill and let your mind fly..
and come back to realize you're so lucky to have so many

peace..

can't stop eating: packaged roasted chestnuts.. it comes peeled and ready to eat yum :d

mini fatlittlebear update
put up the old, never-finished-cos-i-changed-the-layout flash, better that it rotting in my hd..
can you find the monkey and the whale?
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i want to go out tonight, but i need to do my taxes oy..
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and i ended up watching switchblade sisters again...

cama .. domba .. guling
(R » L)

i didn't know what emo was so i googled it
What the heck *is* emo, anyway?
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Addicted to lip balm (chicago tribune)
i don't consider myself addicted..
tho there are days where i just have to slather it on every couple o minutes
or it's hella dry and it hella hurts
faves:
blistex medicated (for everyday) .. mm menthol
carmex (for serious chapping) .. not too keen on the waxiness, but it helps
kiehls lip balm for a more slippery feel
kiehls lip gloss for some color + balm benefits

thankie for the recommendations

today is one of those days when i just can't get it goin
no matter how hard i try

coffee'll just make me puke and the minute some form of acceptable
distraction surfaces, i reach out and grab it (over here it's mostly in the form of food)

so yeah, i've been coding, but i'm not getting anything done..
and i'm so unmotivated... wanting only to go home so i can get some work done..

yet when i got back last nite all i did was watch the telly
i don't even know what i watched
but i sure did waste a coupla hours..

oh yeah

it was da ali g show
made me realize why i said booyaka
cos he says booyakasha in his opening sequence

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i don't know if my thoughts are entirely mine anymore
they're so heavily influenced by things around me
i'm sure unless you're cut off from civilization,
you feel the same way too

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so, i haven't read a good book, let alone any book in a while

what are your faves?

booyaka!

fuckin tired.. what else is new

for ppl in my generation
it's just work
funerals and births
or is that just the norm
i dunno
time is something you cannot control
yet most religious text proclaim that in the end/upon enlightenment
we will be released from the bonds of time
too bad our biological self will friggin decompose
soon as our brain tells it to stop
then again what is it good for
this shell
sure it's cushy
oh yeah, it makes me who i am

i now like to drink my coffee black / with milk

i used to hate coffee

but i need it to get me goin

work work work

a girl's work is never done

yes i wouldn't mind a maid
or a mountain of money
a rich patron
or exceptionally good luck

i find myself trudging along at some unknown
but seemingly pre-determined phase
i want to break free.. i hate predictability
but i'm also scared of change

...
been eating too too much krackel
and cheddar jalapeno peanuts

here's a lil ditty

pants don't fit
waistline digs in
too much food
all on a whim