so as i sit here.. trying to burn extra hours, i'm still workin on stuff, 'cept right now
i dunno, it feels weird
it sucks not being pampered anymore
tho yeah i'm fully grown
and i am here on my own choice
freedom and independence but what a shitty price it is sometimes..
i figured i'll duck out earlier tomorrow.. you know i consider 5 pm early! :

i don't understand religious extremism
i understand they're basing actions on the word of God
what they forgot is that the version they read is one that has been transcribed translated retranscribed reinterpreted by men for millenias
yes it's the farkin 2000s
imagine how many iterations there have been
think of the many changes that has occured
can you say it's still true that there is only one God and he is in some locality of choosing?
back then some small section of the earth was known to be all there is
how can one say there is only God's land and enemy's land
what you're going to kill or convert others?
for what exactly?
fulfilling God's promise of ?
yeah fill in the blanks
just think before acting
education is key
if only all the ignorant people get a decent education
if only intellect and free will can be spread as easily as sars
people think for yourselves!
how can a single supreme being who is equated to being love have prejudices against certain people
how can it justify uneccessary killings
remember your text was written in the time of warfare power struggles uncertainties about this earth
feh
extremists are everywhere
fukkin extremists
i prescribe self-immolation if you really want to make a point
stupid people cause the deaths of others who follow commands because they signed a contract
wtf?
a new world view is desperately needed to unify all those who hold too dearly to their localized Gods
i'm spouting cos i hate how ignorance is still so prevalent.
i'm not saying organized religion is evil tho it can be
everyone has the right to practice their beliefs in a manner of their choosing
no one should ever feel threatened by someone else's weird practices
why should people feel this way?
i don't understand
bombing religious institutions?
dying bacause they think their sacred grounds will be unholy
wtf
if a rat stepped on some horse dung and ran into one of the places in the middle of the night
and no one saw it, wouldn't it be unholy too
but since no one knows it's still holy?
stupid stupid extremists
they're the only group idare to call stupid
but they're also very dangerous
bacause they live for the afterlife
yea i don't undrstand it either
i know life is full of suffering but if it has no purpose and all we wanna do is go to heaven
why doesn't everyone just die the minute they're born
hey instant access, no sins yet
tho some believe in original sin
ok.. so just by being born you've sinned
how?
sins of the fathers?
yea no wonder everyone's trying ot kill each other
someone's done something wrong to someone else int the past few million years i'm sure
sheesh
it's so bloody frustrating
everytime i read news of stupid people wreaking havoc
i wish i had some superpowers so i can go slap each one of em in the face, twice
there are injustices and sometimes you do have to fight for your rights
that i understand, but don't kill over silly differing doctrines that all in general emphasize on being good and godly
it's more like satan's trap, those who think they're so farkin holy
they want recognition they want submission for their own personal self satisfaction that is well come on now of this earth

anyway.. i was baptized catholic
and i know growing up talking religion classes i always wonder why do i care that this guy is the god of israel?
i'm in indonesia
i'm chinese
yes the stories have virtues but that's all they are, stories
you can't take them literally
you have to interpret it yourself
those extremists take those words as if their lives depended on it.

heh http://www.manties.net/
guess those who want em can finally get em in their size ... yes it's Man panties

i'm coming in to work on my bday
(btw it's not today! i'm currently still a young 23 )
figured i'd be a wimp if i didn't
hmmh.. .... yea i'm just lazy and would take any excuse to not have to come in..
but i'd much rather save my precious ONE personal day for when i need to get my wisdom teeth out or moving.. both coming along soon..
ah wells..
yes it's much more fun being a kid
my parents used to make such a big fuss about it
they'd throw a big party cos 3 of their kids had birthdays around the same time (all bullheaded tauruses)
heck it was just an excuse to throw a party and eat a lot
those were fun days
tho i hated having to put makeup and get dolled up for family pics
sadly i think a lot of those pics were ruined when our house in jkt got flooded.. stupid megamal blocked the reservoir in the neighborhood... and since no one was around, they weren't saved
i hate the fact that when it rains hard in floods in pluit
tho i know i'm part of the problem cos i don't pay taxes back home.. well i don't work there .. and honestly not sure what the laws are.. i asked my cousin recently. she could only think of some law/regulation for men none for women.. heh go figure..

feh stupid popular show
can't even get decent tix
i ain't spending 24.50 on tix just for an hour viewing time
...

shiet, how come everyone sound so depresed
happy times are waaay overdue..

ok, at least i know why i'm a bit depressed
i'm going to be twenty fukin four pretty gosh darned soon
dang
it's a time when you realize shit another year's gone by
and i've done .. what? (insert appropriate items)
and i am a bit sad that i didn't do/achieve eveything i set out to do
just like my sunday night depression
ok it's the end of the weekend
another spent not finishing what i'd like to get done :
bleh.. yes happy times are due
i know i'm spending my bday working here >:
or maybe i should take a personal day and go to moma...

....
so tired today..
been up since 6 but i still got in late..
physical refusal to work
it's so nice outside :
one good thing tho, moma queens is nearby
i didn't realize it until today..
long lunch? nah, prob sometime after work saturday...
i still need to catch that matisse picasso exhibit
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i been thinking
i'm a bit useless when it comes to doing work around the house
i don't know how to fix the plumbing/wiring
never had to lay down roof/floor tiles etc etc.
(i'm extremely paranoid about overflow with a full toilet eeeecccchhh)
one of these days that's another one to scratch off the list
when we get our place, imma try to fix some things up myself
but i'll probabaly just stick to painting and building furniture
....
interesting articles:
Hearing Colors, Tasting Shapes - synesthesia

Parallel Universes - mutiverse theory 
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first off, jules, i'm not going to reunion this weekend :
we need to clean up and scout for a new apt..
sorry, but i'll see you in the city
.
so apt hunting, car watching..
still haven't found the perfect place..
and things are so fukkin expensive
why can't i get a nice place for 100 bucks?
sigh..

won't worry abt getting a car until the place is down pat.
too bad they didn't have a floor display of the new prius,
that's still top on the list
next is the civic hatchback and the scion..

how boring, we did go to a nice pasta place tho after the javetz center
mm, linguini w garlic anhovy and olive oil yum.. drool
and yeah fukkin allergies :/

to think that i may miss out on my hs best friend's wedding :
sigh.. i remember in highschool how we promised to be there for each others' giggling over our perceived future wedding to faceless grooms
life, it's always unpredictable
but i will get a chance to say something.. mm gotta start writing that speech
i'd much rather be there in person than having it taped, bali man, how can anyone not want to attend..

ha ha i like how i was psyched go out last nite
only to conk out way way too early
well i didn't get out of work till 9
met teddy in times square
ate at the ramen (sapporo) place cos i was craving ramen
yea, where's my lets party attitude
after that bowl of msg, i was feelin ill not to mention super sleepy
(i think pork makes me sick after a few bites..
soon as we got back i was more than ready to go to bed
and not the hot night going to bed thing
no it's the i'm damned tired and i gotta get to work tomorrow going to bed
right here i gotta say teddy's such a sweetie cos he cleaned my room
ok, he said sorry he couldn't clean the whole thing
what? he just made my floor visible again  
my baby picked up all the clothes from the floor and washed them dropped some at the dry cleaners too
i was ecstatic i was going to shower him with kisses
instead i just fell asleep
and now i'm back here again :/
tho we did share a cup of hot cider and cheddar biscuits earlier
and i'm meeting him for the auto show later

.. weird, we're trying to buy a car and a place
sharing a mortgage, now that's commitment

scholarships to suit everyone
excerpts v
"
Have a twin brother or sister? You can go to Valparaiso University in Indiana for free, so long as your look-alike sibling pays the full freight. Ditto Lake Erie College in Ohio, where the two-for-one deal provides full tuition for up to four years and alternates between the twins each year.

New England chapter of the National Association to Advance Fat Acceptance awards $500 to high school seniors if they are obese.

For dwarfs, there's the Billy Barty Foundation scholarship, named after the 3-foot-9 actor.

Gertrude J. Deppen Scholarship at Bucknell University in Lewisburg, Pa.  goes to a student from Mount Carmel -- Deppen's hometown, about 30 miles from campus -- who "shall not be a habitual user of tobacco, intoxicating liquor and narcotics and shall not participate in strenuous athletic contests."
"

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shiet
went outside just now
cos it's just too damn nice to miss out sitting here
course i kknow what's out there, but damn
there really is nothing but warehouses across to the left and right
and mack trucks whizzing by to and fro
i don't even know where i can go for a quick de-stressing stroll
i know there's a pier somewhere, but not too near
hmm.. maybe i should consider redyeing my hair into a nice respectable color
and working for a big corporation with an office smack dab in the city
or not..
sheesh
i wish to be independently wealthy
cos life is too short and i don't want to be bustin my balls (yes i know i physically have none)
workin for someone else locked up in this building 10/11hrs day
yes it's getting to me
the long hours
unchanging
is so gaddammed tiring
:

....

sounds like people are happy today
makes me happy too

hard to concentrate on fridays
i'd like to run naked through the meadows
j/k i'd probably break out in hives if i did that,
not to mention traumatize a flock of sheep

i anticipate something tonite
told teddy he better take me out

wonder where i'll end up
i know it'll end with a joint on the couch  
along with stuff i can't mention in public    
(we'll play fighting games and beat the shit out of each other
i still can't do an mk fatality on him :/ tho i like stabbing him w the sai >:D and watch the bood gush forth)

here's what i bet my money on
the village east/west, we always end up in the neighborhood
dinner #1
drinks
walk around
dinner #2
walk wround
dinner #3
take cab home
smoke/drink on the couch w the telly on
sleep
feh we're old farts
all we do is eat drink and sleep

then tomorrow after work it's the auto show
we're getting the toyota prius hybrid car
my vegetarian socially conscious eco friendly hunk of a man decided so
heck i don't drive but i'll learn so we can take road trips this summer
mmm lobsters in maine again
would like to make it to the other portland in oregon
portland maine with it's brewery/coffee shop on every block was quite fun

... hhh..daydreaming bout what i'd do if i wasn't here ..

surfin the channels today..

n korea going yet again
we have nukes we have nukes we have nukes

silly stories bout saddam and plastic surgery

21 yr old rapes 12 yr old gets 10 years (only?)
girl's mom doesn't believe in abortion and willing to care for the babies. but the twins were born with birth defects.
aggravated sex and having kids as a result are completely fuckin different. i don't think the little 8th grader should've given birth..

12 yr old boy sexually assaults 46 yr old woman
charged with sodomy and attempted oral copulation
wtf? maybe 8th graders aren't that young..

OJ getting his own osbourne like reality show umm, this guy very likely killed his wife... why are people so fascinated with fuckin celebrities they are just fuckin people. some crazier, drunk with previous lavished adorations

no wonder this british royal astronomer predicts a 50/50 chance of us surviving the 21st century

well at least personal maid robots are in the near future let's hope by 2020 i gots me a robot to clean up after me
the latest: wakamaru, for elderly care

..

shiet, we have corp ids now, i feel like tagged cattle :
oh wells..

..

youth is wasted on the young
my coworker told me that today

i was griping about how i thought i'd gained my 'intelligent' consciousness way too late in life
especially after news of that 13 yr old kid getting his math undergrad
it really seems to be the turning point that changes so much
when you start to be able to reflect, plan out your thought, know you're thinking for a reason, understand what is going on and be able to make decisons based on it

anyway i was saying i wish i'd spent more time doing what i liked when i had the luxury to do so
but of course, again, no such thing as time travel and even if you did, no way you'd know what you know now
and even if you told your old self what to do, heck your old silly young self will probably ignore it anyway

so i can't stop listening to ignition remix rkelly
i'm pissed cos it's mainstream crap and all he raps about is how the song is a remix, yah no kiddin
shiet..

oh yah , i thought it's funny you two wrote about buddha's first truth below cos i wrote the same thing last week

it's the collective unconscious baby