April 18, 2003

  • i think i reached some sort of limit today
    cos i just broke down
    i decided to take teddy to the airport so i could chat and feel better
    mind you i'd gone to the office
    and realized that i couldn't stop crying so i came back
    i guess there's always something every month
    you get too tired and then family mishmash creeps in and suddenly you worry even more
    and can't help unloading all the stuff that's been bothering you
    sigh i guess that was quite embarassing..
    worse is i got back in at 5:31
    hence long night here...
    don't money and responsibility suck?
    at least i have my nalp tomorrow
    prob have to come in sunday
    but tomorrow is all mine
    hope everyone has a happy easter :)
    i think two years ago i also cried at easter..
    or maybe i have cried every easter here
    since it's always a time shared with families
    and i haven't spent it with my family since i came to the states
    sigh enough self pitying
    work will distract me then i get to go home..
    home... sleep.. zzzzzz...
    i'm     currently in a weird state of mind :|