i need a punching bag or something...
maybe a padded room and a bat
you know sometimes you just need to physically vent
or maybe i'm just a violent nut..

to breed or not to breed
http://www.salon.com/mwt/feature/2003/05/06/breeding/
salon is running articles on this up till mother's day
i know a lot of us girls wonder
....
heh so they did go along with it..
>Vatican ready to name internet saint
protector of the motherfuckin internet

sheesh.. they just need to pray to someone or something
what's wrong with praying directly to Tha Big Head Honcho G-d

why is it that idolatry is a sin yet catholics looooveee their icons statuettes and what nots
praying fervently in front of some resin plaster plastic model of some european figure from oh so long ago..

been looking at my friend's engagement pics
man i miss indo
i saw the green grass and banana trees and got homesick
yeah i do wonder what if sometimes
we were the same year, but she returned to indo after school and i stayed on
reason: our men. hers works in indo. mine is here.
the decisions you make in life.. and the driving factors...
i really don't buy long distance tho. i know it wouldn't happen/last if i left
and i definitaly did not want to pine away at something i had and could have
coming back would be too hard especially after being pampered at home
somtimes i wonder if i made the right decisions
hard to tell
right now i can't imagine working in indo, simply cos i don't know how
what industry would i break into?
petroleum? like my pre-college plan?
my aunt works for one, i could get hookups an stuff.
i wanted to try out something new and fun
ny seems like the place
i wanted to be creative and be inspired by people i meet
the city's definitely the place
but living alone is hard
i'm glad i do have teddy
but i have no parental support
they're so far away
no holidays together
not witnessing my siblings grow up
a fortune teller told my parents once that i was gone
i would stay in the states and not come back
better not expect me to help around
of course it pissed me a bit
making me sound like an unfilial daughter and such
but i guess it's true
i've stayed and am trying to carve out my career here
but you never know
decisions are made at the drop of a hat no matter how long you think about them
at that moment it's just yes or no
you can always easily halt your path turn around and walk the other way
it's too easy any which way you choose
i think that's why it's scary
there're too many roads
can i say i took the one less travelled?
maybe
it's been a few years and i still don't know
altho ehough time has passed to allow me to contemplate some of my decisions
so far, i haven't regretted much
the older you get the more regrets.
i used to say i'm always going to live without regrets
i'm going to try my best to make the best decisions as well as i can
i've definitely made some wrong choices
attributable to youth and being a chicken cluck cluck.. peekoook
you take the good
you take the bad
how does that song go?
the facts of life

tirred of looking at frikken apts..
everything's so expensive and every tom dick an harry renovated the kitchen/bathroom makin things even pricier..
ergh... my neighborhood just happens to be the current hot sh*t or smtg.. unfortunately for me...
if only we'd taken out some crazy huge ass loan two yrs ago and bought a place, we'd be makin moola rite now...
we're gonna look for the next two weeks, after that rental, can't afford anything, this place is too damn expensive and people are on some buying craze.. things're snapped up left and right as if it's in the hundreds not hundred thousands...
being very picky, but hey if i have to pay thru my nose for the next 30 yrs, the place better be worth it...

mm dinner was good
i'm so overstuffed
teddy made it out too
fun fun
hmm..

the other place we bid on is also gone.. things go so fast
extended our lease.. hope we can find a place soon..

ahh. just had a nice lunch w my coworkers.
had 2 beers..  i actually have the highest tolerance in my group. apart from my boss. hah. the asian girl has the highest tolerance.. i think that's pretty funny.

going to go to dinner later. everytime there's a group bday my boss treats us all.. jeollado tonight.. can't think of a better place. tho it was much much better when it first opened..

thank you for the bday msgs

my dad called last night when i said yeauh i'm getting older, he's like don't say you're getting older say you're getting younger. so yeah. i'm gonna go grow younger from now on. cos i've had enough growing up.

24 .. yippety fukkin do