January 27, 2004

  • i feel like an idiot and am angry at myself
    for continuing to compete in this damned stupid ratrace
    called a corporate job
    i'm missing out on the best years of my life
    more than ever do i feel the desire to create sculpt paint
    but my rational side who constantly wins always remind me of how hard it is to not have a steady job
    most needs can be met monetarily
    a painting will not help anyone
    i hate money.