Month: August 2004

  • last night i thought
    if i can just keep working here to make some money
    paint/ make art the rest of the time and save as much as i can
    i should be quite happy
    of course distance helps
    hence no contact recommended
    heh, proximity..

  • majorly pissed
    this whole uprooting and whatnots
    has left me completely frazzled the last few months
    i forgot to renew my domain now it's in limbo la la land
    bleh
    really need to get my act together
    it's been months
    embarassing how easily i can't get up after a fall :(
    .
    feel like a chicken without a head
    how did life get so messy and unconstructed
    no ambitions no plans
    just freefalling
    into nonexistence if i let myself
    i've been completely clean too
    cept for the occasional cigarettes
    for that need to smoke
    extremely hyper and confused
    i was better stoned

  • getting sick.. stupid cough
    jettin out soon as i spam out these 6 emails
    so sick of waiting for a stupid app to load
    stupid waste to time.. (just like typing here...)

  • times like these, i wish i'd gone to finance and made a decent paycheck
    at least a bonus for a job well done or overtime.
    i'd make more dough just working on a fishing boat for a month or two.
    jeebus.
    i'm glad i didn't got meet up w him
    i would've just been too angry to be any nice to anyone.

  • i'm going slightly mad.
    just going slightly mad.
    it finally happened.
    i'm slightly mad
    just very slightly mad..

    -queen, not just me.

  • leaving work early is always fun. and early by my standards is 5.30.
    went to chinatown, shopped for lobsters, vegetables, a wok (finally), sauces
    somehow packed it all on the bike.
    how 4 lobsters stuffed at the bottom of the tank bag weighed down with stuff survived the journey, i'm not sure
    but those little tasty crustaceans are resilient and delicious
    mmm.
    some to think of it, that was the first time i cooked lobster at home.
    i take that back, lobster was cooked at home, cos heck i was too squemish to even hold it up. (i held up the limpest one that was probably at the bottom, it was half orange probably from the tank heat)

  • went to six flag's NJ waterpark
    it's very tiny. never been on waterslides b4 but the waiting in line soon made it not fun.
    went to pt pleasant
    lost my sunglasses in the wave only to find it (combing the sand w my feet) 2 hrs later.
    not bad.
    i guess.
    wow, i'm so not a happy camper these days.

  • today today...
    trying my best to only worry about today
    i hate hurting others
    but right now it seems whatever i do someone gets hurt as a result
    i myself am tired of being hurt
    why can't everybody just be happy

  • aaaaaaaaaa a a a a
    stuck waiting for an image patch
    and all the sa's are in a meeting :














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