October 21, 2004

  • i am tired.
    been unable to sleep early nor have the determination to get out of bed once it's time to go.
    bleh. lesse sleep 4/5 am, wake up 8/9 am, sleep some more until 10xx then i run to make my 11 am meeting. that's it. no matter what time i come home, even thought the earliest is prob 2, i have to stay up until 4/5.
    yes, i'm still depressed and would like to not really be around this reality for awhile.
    but shit. gotta make sure i don't get fired.
    very little mean anything to me now.
    i should be thankful for what i have
    but am still plagued by what i've lost.
    and just can't damn get it out of my head that it's over so what if it's your fault
    quit agonizing over it cos it does no one any good.
    silly i know.


    but open studio is this weekend. crane st studios saturday & sunday 12-6
    i'm sharing #17 on the 4th fl.
    gotta clean.