yay i lost my fukkin wallet, how stupid can one get..
just hope someone's found it and returns it. might not be able to go back home.
the whole fallen and the ladder falls on top thingamajig.
fuk.
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rob my coworker who drove me there earlier definitely felt bad and pitched in digging through the trash in front of quiznos (just in case i stupidly threw it out). wotta friend.

i think i follow the cleared path a lil too much.
what's wrong with me always going with the flow.
so i didn't make an attempt to try and catch up with ppl over the weekend.
not quite sure why even though i was like yeah we'll go out and party,
ended up working friday & saturday, painting this lounge's concrete
walls some old-looking rust-on rock color . 8 pm to 3/4 am yes, my life
is so goddamn exciting.
what did i do during the day? god only knows. i think i slept most of it away.
sunday was the worst. i slept in pretty much all day.
i remember thinking at one point boy wouldm't it be nice to fall asleep and never wake up again.
scary thoughts scare me, but i'm too much of a chicken to do anything about it.
.
need to let go.
the past doens't matter anymore.
how can one go forward clinging to the past.
easy to say hard to do. whay can't this head of mine clear up?

are you tv chef material?
food network looking for their next on-air chef!
http://www.foodnetwork.com/food/audience_input/article/0,,FOOD_9785_3274202,00.html

The Food Network is on a nationwide search for an amateur or
professional with "personality, style and working knowledge of food and
cooking" to star in a six-episode show next fall. For rules, go to
www.foodnetwork.com and click on contests and offers.

amex holders do you know about this promotion?
http://www.mylifemycard.com
BMW Z4 for $5000, retail 42500 , and other goodies available at certain times only.
don't think there's a catch, just another heavily invested in marketing promo like those free ipods.
man if i didn't owe so much already i'd buy that car.
they had scooters for 800, retail 3000, but too late to buy..

everyone's writing thier thanks.
lesse, thankful for:
loving family & friends
everyone close to me being in good health
still having a job to pay bills after eveything else falls apart
new friendships to help me through these rough patches
going through divorce at a young age (hah, note the sarcasm..)

i read about this in the inflight magazine going to spore.
how this korean actor from the soap winter sonata is the hottest thing right now (is it still?) in japan,
http://salon.com/ent/wire/2004/11/22/korea_japan/index.html

kinda makes me want to watch and see just how sappy it is.. heh

i've only been to 2 kung fu classes and already my thighs are so damn sore.
then again, maybe it was one night in heels that did it.
they were my favorite pair too before
i remember always saying, oh these don't hurt, they're kinda platform so it's not that high.
guess not anymore.
wonder if i'll make it to the next class tuesday..
i better after all that cash i dropped
heh i like how money is my motivation.
monthly is better than annually cos at least my ass will know very well how much i'd waste if i don't go.
more chi! train harder!

my hs best friend's baby, lil' Summer
hopefully will get to see her this christmas

i have all these pics i've been meaning to post.
ok maybe it's just laziness, don't know why it still hasn't migrated away from my hard drive.
sneezing and sleepy.

guess i'm goin home again.
i like how i have a  ton o crap to pay off yet bought an 1800 ticket.
ah well, family time is priceless. money comes and goes. life is but once.
non-stop to singapore, the no transit will be much welcomed.

(course if i got it in advance it would've been half that, 900+ i bet)