December 10, 2004

  • been wakinig up later and later.
    after the adrenaline rush of fear that got me out of bed with just 2 hrs of sleep
    ii now take 6-8 hrs of slumber before rising
    and i still sleep 3/4/5
    oh yes you can bet i saunter in here late.
    pretty embarassing.
    i think i'm just dreading the next day, because i'm so not looking
    forward to next week when it all ends, legally on paper, just like the
    way it started.
    but why should i worry so much anyway right?
    life goes on. my death will come too soon anyway, best to enjoy life till the last breaths
    and honestly who will judge you or your actions?
    i think as long as you can live with your decisions it's fine.