seems that the people who bother to call me these days only do so because of money.
even my parental unit. god bless em. i love em, but i wish the convo is different. ok i know it costs a lot to call here..
sigh. where did those who actually care about my well-being go?
if
i still have my life, don't lose a limb or be disabled by the end of
this year, i will feel extremely lucky. shit's just been piling up all
year long and it doesn't seem to want to stop with the episode last
week. here's hoping it's all normal this week. oh wait i already have
shit to settle with my ex. bleh i hate money talk. he just wants to get
rid of me, i just hate money talk not trying to be irresponsible, but i
just hate it. bleh.
.
fuck money. who cares about credit ratings. i hate that in this sphere
at this time, so much attention is paid into quantities/numerical
figures to quickly describe you as an individual.
.
well so i
chould give credit where credit is due, i do get other calls not
involving money, but it involves unpaid/assistant work, heh, i get no
breaks.

baby envy
now that the situation is no longer a simple when
i wonder if i do have baby envy
def when we parted i wished i had had a baby girl so i had someone to be with.
ah well.
i'm too much of a mess to have a kid anyway.
the plan was 40 cos yes, i want to be that scary old lady at the pta meetings.

oh yeah i also picked up my new passport today
and somehow the lady miswrote my nationality
(all the indo pass i've had has the info handwritten)
hello? i'm getting an indonesian passport wouldn't i be indonesian?
the prev entry was covered with whiteout, yes sure looks like standard bic whiteout to me
twas two words, with the second seeming barely finished
i hate to think that she was trying to write permanent resident
d'oh
now i'll definitely get asked everytime if the pass is fake
cos it sure looks so to me.
dammit.

applied and got interim id
cancelled credit cards
closed and opened new bank account
going to get a new greencard tomorrow, think the temporary stamp instantly issued will be sufficient for travel
placed alert flag w the 3 major credit bureaus
am i missing anything?
unfortunately i have to have my greencard to get a new ss card
whew.
what a whirlwind week
seems that 2004 really wants to test my limits to the maxxxx and then some
i can't fukkin wait for this year to be over
was telling jenn tonight
finally this year
i will be enthusiastically counting down 10 9 8 ...
instead of shyly pitching in not understanding what the commotion's all about.
ah taurus, do you really have to be stung so badly before you go to the next step in your life?
sound kinda pathetic don't it and terribly lazy
whatever i like being the domestic bull lazing around in the sun.
stubborn i am