this is worth getting a salon day pass
voluntary human shields
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attman's deli
cornedbeef row
baltimore md
where poe died in a pool of his own vomit
and hotdogs come with a slice of fried bologna
mmm could use one right now...
no not the vomit dead body part
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listening to 'the mind of gil scott heron'..
amazing stuff
worth a revisit in these times
didn't know this.. apparently he has a creative writing masters from hopkins
the revolution will not be televised
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saw 'working girl' last nite..
hbo on demand
plenty of 80's hair
business always look fun in movies

.. melanie griffith, harrison ford, sigourney weaver, joan cusack, kevin spacey, oliver platt, david duchovny..
how come it's the same actors over and over again when there are millions desperate to break through..
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sometimes i really wonder how incompetent assholes get jobs/paid for 'work'..
some smooth talking during the interview?
good credentials?
knowing how to put on a good show...
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mr rogers .. :(

airbrushed panty showing skirts fake
that explains how the legs are always aligned..
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peeve of the day..
when T stretches my socks out by mistakenly wearing them..
i need to start buying some really girly socks.. pink w pom poms .. instead of standard white athletic 

all this talk bout futures
i knew what i want since i was 5
i want to paint all day long
in a shack by the beach
paint whatever i wanted
just because i wanted to
all my life so far
i'm simply finding ways to
get to this state

seems simple but it ain't
paint costs money
canvas costs money
where am i going to put it
what am i going to do with it
how do i support myself
living on the beach
who pays for the shack
how do i get food
sigh...

life and it's responsibilities

and when you do what you're supposed to
pay your bills cook your dinners
buy your paints work that job
you're too exhausted to do little else..

i watched a pretty fucked up korean movie last nite (seems like the sundance channel had a lil korean film fest)

The Isle (Seom)


the beauty of foreign films as teddy said is that you only get to see the good ones
but yea that movie made me think dang koreans are so fucking hardcore or something... and are the men that bad?
i've never seen a habitat like that, i know people live on boats all over asia, is such a setup common in korea?

so that was my second exposure to korean cinema, the first was

Memento Mori


tho I thought they kinda copped out at the end.. who can resist pretty lesbian high schoolers

FOCK! i left my cell at work... :
i am so forgetful jones
remember when he sang oklahoma?
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there's gotta be some weird collective unconscious
you find people doing|thinking of the same things at the same time
similar media exposure? similar age group? similar background?
same genetic makeup? same point in time?
.. ..
never enough hours in a day ..
not much jeannice time since i've been so busy
oh well .. i will toke and try to get something done ..

so pissed to be back
only to be greeted with knee deep
dirty mushy snow
and cold brown puddles

was stressin too much
trying to get a flight home
without my bear
i can get completely outta control
esp when it's that time
good thing he knows
and understands

thursday i had fondue
friday chocolate fondue
then off to vegas with my bear
joined a peace protest on the strip
buffets, family dinners/lunches
gambling, lost 60 bucks :
craps roulette blackjack slots
60th anniversary banquet

blizzard of 03 hit
flight got cancelled
2 extra days..
sightseeing @ red rock canyon
skiing on mt charles
still good on those skis
nevada's real pretty ..

flew back alone
straight off to work
can't wait for the weekend
when my bear'll be back

stop hold what is going on?
from an unelected president
to a downtown suicide mission
from the search for a terrorist
to a revisit of the '91 war
why how? i'm still trying to recuperate here
people buying duct tape
who are they kidding
if you're attacked you'll die so be it
i hate not knowing
i hate not being able to make a difference
i don't understand how one man
in a democracy can make such a big decision
why the trigger happy glee
why the big suvs clogging up the streets
shit don't make sense
a bomber apologizing but proud of his achievements?
fucker, can't believe you're still alive
i wish you weren't
but who am i to say who lives and dies
why so pissed at some tv show?
we're goin to war
why so much coverage for something trivial
do they merit the same attention
why can't i find a trustworthy source?
i don't know who to believe
i'm fed a lot of junk
i'm fed a lot of propaganda
spam is now a weapon of war
lawmakers allowed to be bullies
company executives with large loopholes
why are they more deserving?
is it who they know?
were they blessed with a silver spoon?
the caste system exists everywhere
just with different breakdowns
we can change our fates
but what if everyone's against it
then what?
runaway home?
home may be where the heart is
family is still nearest and dearest
but freedom and tolerance vary geographically
even tho we live on the same planet
and share the same genes
you now what
i hope some alien civilization comes for a visit
maybe then we'll forget our silly disputes
raise a big fat skeptic eyebrow to the scriptures
so men will not foolishly die
for an outdated localized manuscript

there's much to be liked about living
good food, fun, family
sunshine, clear water, cool mountain breeze
falling in love feeling sad finding a friend
caring for nature space explorations
finding a cure all
discovering life's mysteries

i hope the protest will have an impact

and i hope lady luck will be with me
when i'm in sin city
tho i'll probably pump away my quarters
at the arcade

professor cama's how to lose weight asap:
no carbs no bread/rice/pasta
go vegetarian
go vegan
go raw vegan (everything only cooked by nature, you want pizza better let that dough sit on your roof for awhile)
drink seltzer (it'll make you feel fuller)
exlax after dinner (mm chocolatey.. ..)
stress a lot
worry a lot
feel hungry? chew on mint gum (mint supresses appetite) or mint leaves if you don't want any added calories
go on a liquid diet
count calories of everything you eat (or be like jared and stick with the same thing everysinglefuckin day, just cos you know exactly how much went in w/o much thinking)
of course exercise but we're talkin lose weight fast right not build muscles
>> muscles heavier than fat
try olestra. hell it gives you anal leakage w/o doing anything
(the oil molecules don't get absorbed so they just pass thru)
or you can just go the old way and not eat
find a cause and go on a hunger strike
btw, laughing also works those stomach muscles

*disclaimer: cama is a panda, he is not a licensed dietician. he would much rather you take a big hit and chillax... >:D
** what no throwing up? hey, what goes in one way should come out the other.

bit unfair?

teen gets 26 yrs for marijuana sale totaling $350
rich murderers go free
manslaughter 5/10 yrs
rapists/child molesters 25 yrs
something is very wrong here...
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the reason behind marijuana criminalization, is so hemp it's cousin that can produce higher quality paper won't interfere with the traditional (wood) paper industry.. remember it was banned in the 30's when the publishing empire had a great influence (and thick pockets)
as with all, some guy made sure his monopoly stays put...
some also say it was to jail mexican worker immigrants who were the main users at the time (a racial bias!)
now the drug war puts money in the private prison system (more prisoners to do those telemarketing schemes probably).. somewhere some fat cat gets rich while someone does some undeserved hard time behind bars
what's worse is the bias against low income families, since kids who are known to have tried mary j cannot quallify for college financial aid.. now isn't that just a bit extreme?

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with all that said, a part of me does not want to see mary j be stupidly commercialized like beer/cigarettes either.. that would soo friggin suck :