i like to smoke that good ganja


heh just needed to upload that

didn't realize, been here almost a year. oct 4th
and i've documented from the days while anxiously looking, interviewing and inbetweens till now.
strange when you can just zip back and recap what you did for a year.
having a form of quantitative measure makes a difference.
for me, it makes time seem to go by even faster. since my whole year is just a couple of pages..

we did go to a wedding on saturday, at coney island!
lovely bride kitzilla's in the background.
but as soon as i can leave this country. i'm heading to jamaica.

pre-alcohol, so we look normal, for post go to the journal. you know where that is jules
i told teddy he looked like principal skinner
my hair is that short now, i feel like growing some back for the winter..

missing my best friend's wedding right now.
my parents just called
they're there
how unfair :
i guess i just miss them..
definitely jealous.
they're havin fun in bali!
last time (during college) they were at the carnival in rio and i couldn't go because i had midterms
midterms schidterms.
i should've just gone with them for a few days
(course i prob wouldn't grad in 4 yrs..)

dang it seems like everyone and their extended relatives pile on the 7 train between 8 & 9
gotta leave earlier. i'm sick of getting crushed btw people.
and the footbridge below the l.i.e which i have to cross on a daily basis is geting stinkier again.
some days i wonder what the hell did i do wrong to have to smell bum piss on my daily commute. yuck.

whirlwind

friday again.
weekends come around so fast.
probably has lots to do w the fact that i stare towards this damn corner 12 hrs a day.
damn cubicle.
at least i'm employed, marginally underemployed probably.
i really wonder even more now, what it's like if i stayed back home.
if it wasn't for teddy, i really had no reason to go back to school
after the asian market crash, etc etc.
but, hmm life would be much simpler
i would be much simpler
i think, who knows. ain't no parallel dimension i can peek to
of course i'm just reminiscing so everything seems perfect.
everyone still kids.
reality's much different now.
i miss home.
my parents are still there.
tho i seldom have contact with them.
almost 2 yrs. probably more since i last saw them.

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i wonder if this color is what gets me down everytime i try to write here..

what's up with moonies?
crazy extremists i'm used to (i suppose)
but following a billionaire who thinks he's the messiah
forcing followers to call him and his wife true father and mother
wtf?
why are ppl so easily sucked into cults?
i don't understand it when human beigns can regard another flesh and blood human being as being god
child of god and what not especially when this holy man/woman has a crazy lavish lifestyle. high political connections.
oh and they love wearing their burger king hats. sitting on thrones looking important and silly.
well come out moonies, gimme what you've got.
i think it's just plain silly.
i'm agnostic raised roman catholic.
and i do believe that many organized religion preys on weak people and is essentially evil.
i don't understand why people just blindly give up everything to follow them. i.e support the lavish lifestyles of their 'leaders'

you know what.
as much as i'd hate to admit it.
my personal style is totally influenced by those damn men.
some of you are gentlemen
but the lot are a bunch of sad ass losers who like to ogle.
i try my best to hide my feminine side
i try my best to look crazy
so you'll leave me alone
don't hey baby me and get pissed when i don't respond
i don't wear skirts
i cut all my hair
i refuse to look pretty
you can say it's because i've got someone to call my own
heck he's the only reason i dare to go out in a skirt nowadays
strange huh.

i have 2 donuts, pink cookies and fruit punch for breakfast.
watch me get a sugar high..
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i didn't know Ibu Presiden Megawati is/was in New York.
from the post's Cindy Adams "And Indonesia's President Megawati Soekarnoputri and half-sister, New Yorker Karina Sukarno (same father, Sukarno, the country's first president; different mothers), went shopping. I know because Mme. President told me herself on the phone. Maybe, since Karina's mother Dewi is Japanese, one stop was Takashimaya." 
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this is horrible.
bad bad parenting.
restraints at night  could've worked.
girl 5, chews off fingers, all 10  xian, shaanxi, china (within a span of 3 yrs. you'd think they could've at least stopped at 1 finger)
after all that feet binding too for 1000 years. (ok, i don't know abt that region specifically)
they can make feet horribly distorted over the span of lifetimes but can't stop a lil girl chewing off her digits