got my motorcycle permit
i can start learning on the harley..
made it b4 my bday too,
the self-imposed cutoff

ah the start of shittiness
so i thought i got myself a well-priced kickass system
only to find my 3.4 G processor hangs when trying to import a possibly bad image file.. like improperly named.
wtf?
was with dell cupport for 2 hrs foudn out some harddrives weren't connected properly but even after that it still hangs.
omfg is it just xp?
i've arranged for a return
i'm getting a mac
f* all this pc bs
on that note, any mac problems i should be aware of, if any?
the powerbook my studiomate has is slow but i think he just needs to do a clean reinstall

have this feeling of dread looming over my head..
hmm...
must be the aging process
at any rate depressed and melancholy jeannice is in full swing :

benefit of  'older'/ more experienced person
at the end of the day, they always give you good advice on life

high note of last night
someone cracked my back
in a good way
(like my shoulder blades ache so much my back needs to be 'cracked')
relieved a whole lot of stress
man if only i could get that every other day/ once a week/ month
life would be bliss..
le sigh ..

parents always call at the right time
everytime i'm just so damn down and depressed and alone
i get a call in the morn from my mom then my dad
glad to still have family
i always forget i'm not alone when i come home to my apartment feeling lonely and try to sleep for the next workday
so many thoughts spinning in my head
you know what it is
as you get more experience there are just more things you'd rather forget but can't
so carve out your life experiences very carefully
all those memories come up in an instant
the whole time heals all
hmm, definitely softened the blow but the memories are still there
and just a lil too damn fresh
i wonder if in a few years and i'm talking to mydate
we'll find ourselves going: so me and my ex.. bla bla
at the start of every other word
singapore is still tempting
my mom suggests i find myself a nice indonesian boy
my requirements are simple: no kids, healthy, makes me laugh
that ain't so much to ask      

i noticed last night how more and more people in my random social groups have had nose jobs
it's always the very pretty girls you can't take your eyes off for awhile
and then later on you realize oh she's had a nose job that's why
not being bitchy or catty, heck my mom wants me to get a nose job
but what hit me is what it's supposed to achive when you sew down the sides just a lil bit
(just like my mom suggested)
you don't want your nostrils to flare from breathing cos it's unladylike
or something like that
really the biggest difference is that their nostrils don't move
the nose is often too pinched as a dainty perky top is so desirable (a la MJ)
anyway, maybe it's just me, or maybe they just had bad rhinoplasty
in any case they're still very pretty and hard to take yer eyes off
i need to check out more men obviously when i go out
most times they're so boring tho
it's like women buy sports illustrated more than men
(ok unproven statistics)

note to self:
it takes 24 oz of coffee to wake me up
.. good to know..

need a good distraction tonight
being sick all weekend was no fun
need a breath of fresh air
.
yes, monday night
late night distraction, can't wait
lets hope i don't fall asleep prior
so sleepy right now.. yawn..

i regret not getting the software i wanted w my new comp.
there's no better deal than that one sigh..
wasting/spending moola left and right..
bleh.